Here comes the opportunity

Internship program in UK?

Super excited.

Have I ever mentioned about me being so passionate in living or study abroad? Well, of course not. This is my second post so far and due to that I haven't quite describing myself; about what I like, what I want, this and that, etc. The main reason is simple; I want to feel something different. I want a new environment. An environment which has a diversity in people and culture. Just what you will get by studying abroad, isn't? There will be a lot of people coming from different sides of the world to one of those top world universities. I want to be one of those people. My choice of studying abroad, so far, is UK. There are a lot of good universities there that I can choose as my consideration. But as far as I'm concerned, there are many obstacles in which I have to go through if I still stick to my first choice. First, UK is way to far from my hometown. Second, there will be a tough competition for getting accepted in one of UK's top universities. And the third one, will be explained further in the next paragraph. 

As I'm in my final year of getting a bachelor degree, the only reason for me to go abroad is for taking master. Taking a master degree, however, needs a lot of efforts. I don't mind, really. Studying day and night or taking away my weekends as long as my goal is finally achieved. But the only huge thing that matters to me the most is the scholarship. I have to get the FULL scholarship. I HAVE TO. Not a half scholarship or something, but the full one. All free including tuition fees, books, home stay/dorm and living cost. And why am I supposed to get it? Well, I still have one younger sister and two younger brothers whom my parents need to take care of. I came from a middle-class family. Not a super-rich sort of family. Getting a scholarship is also my decision. I don't want to bother my parents anymore. Instead, I want to help them raising my sister and brothers as I'm the oldest child they have. 

So.. where was I?

Scholarship. Right. For these past few months, I've been doing research for UK scholarship. It turned out, that full scholarship is very rare. Mostly they are giving a half scholarship or a reduction in the fees. Therefore.. sadly.. hardly.. I have and need to let go of it. Let go of UK. If I was meant to be there, I will be there. God surely has a better plan rather than I do. He knows myself more than anyone in this entire world, even me. But still, I want to study abroad. Maybe not in UK, maybe.. Malaysia or Singapore. Still in Asia? yes baby. Or maybe Australia is also a good choice. I don't know. I really don't know. 

Reality hurts. Way more hurtful than having a toothache. But I didn't stop until there. I know getting a scholarship is hardly unachievable, but I still have a way to study in UK even for only one or two months. I was thinking of joining a summer school. In which I can study English language in UK for a short period of time. If it comes to summer school, EF always comes as the first choice. They have a good program for studying English abroad in the summer. And I think it's not so costly. My target is by April or May 2012, so I still have months to save the money. And last week I surfed down the net to find the appropriate program for me. I filled the registration form and they said they will send me the details in 3 or 4 days. 

I received the email, finally. 

I was expected the email will consist of the price details or the summary of the program. But instead, they sent me an email about an international career. 'What the hell?' I said it once I opened the mail. I didn't ask for this! and I also not interesting in getting a job first. But well, I still downloaded all the attachments given, I thought maybe I could find something interesting.

AND YES I DID. 

They gave me a flyer about joining an internship program abroad! Internship!! A two months (or more) internship program. The choices of the cities are mostly in UK and some are in US and Australia. Well heck yeah, I AM SO UP FOR IT. I'm rooting for the internship in Lloyd's Bank, Brighton as it is the only organization available for IT industries. (FYI, I'm majoring in Computer Science.) I have to fill some forms I think. But it'll be better for me to call first and ask for the details. I'll have my fingers crossed so that I can be accepted. Maybe this is the way.. The path that God has given to me. Maybe.. I'm so really hoping for this. If I got in, I'll get two benefits. First, I'll be studying English as well as some IT related things. and second, I'll have more working experience. You don't know how happy I am just by writing this down. I'm not gonna make my expectation too high though, I'm not gonna expect anything. I just want to go for it. I'll try my best. Cause if I fail, the reality will hurt more than ever. I got that feeling already, and I'm not gonna the mistake I made a long time ago for the second times; to expect. 

I will just go for it. 

God will help.

God will hear my prayers.

I just need to believe in Him and myself.

That's it for now.

Adieu. ;)

A simple hello.

Hi. I'm just a human being, like you. Not an alien or a talking beaver. 

I'm not good in greetings. And surely not capable of making a good conversation with a stranger.

It takes me minutes to figure out what to ask.. or what to say..

Anyway..

I miss writing. I miss putting my ideas into words. I nearly have something to share though, but there are things in my mind that need to be put into sentences. The reason I've been avoiding writing is because my inability to capture of all the good memories I've had. The good memories that actually good to be shared (in my point of view). I forgot those times when I used to love writing. I forgot how I always gave some time to 'communicate' with myself through my written stories. I forgot how I used to be so blessed just by remembering how my day went. It was such a lovely phase of time. I want to have it again. A quite quality time, to just sit down and type something that is worth seeing. 

I've come to my senses to write again when I read my posts a long time ago in my Tumblr. I reblogged pictures most of the times but there were also some of my writings I found between those pictures. Mostly, I posted something about me being mad due to the excessively course works. Yep, the never-ending-assignments. A one certain thing that everyone must have been dealing with.

Speaking of the posts, something crossed my mind. 

I remembered that I still own a blog. And I opened one. An old blog of mine. I had it two years ago when I was still 16 years old. I laughed at some of the posts. I laughed by just remembering all those memories. The good thing is, I still remember. By reading the posts, one by one, I'm actually feeling jealous with the 'old' me. The old version of me who always gets some time refreshing her mind by writing the stories in paragraphs. I've been busy with my life, all the routines. 

So, well, here I am. Trying to write, again. 

Let's spill the beans, divulge the secret, and embrace the new start.
Cheers.